It is funny sometimes how having a conversation with my mother can bring up the craziest things. It isnât a secret that I have been waiting for a couple of months for my engine to be fixed on my motorhome. Â Luckily, my niece and her husband have allowed me to chill on her couch while I have been waiting but I can tell you, I am in the way here.
There just isnât any way around it. They have an open floor plan and there isnât anywhere to hide unless I want to chill in the bathroom.
Lately, I have noticed myself getting really depressed over the fact that my journey isnât looking like I wanted it to. This year was supposed to be seeing different locations, meditating, learning, teaching, and visiting things I have never seen before. Yet, I have been STUCK here.
Yesterday, my mother told me she was worried because I was so much like her but she always has her faith to fall back on. Her assumption was that I donât have any because I practice Jediism instead of Christianity.
I have learned long ago not to argue the fact that just because I am not Christian doesnât mean I donât have beliefs to fall back. Yet, this conversation did spark an idea that I havenât been practicing one of the teachings, âJedi are wary of attachments, both material and personal. The obsession over possessions and people creates the fear of losing those possessions and relationships which can cause ourselves to be trapped in a state of depression and loss.â
While I donât think I am going to turn into a Sith Lord and start killing younglings like Anakin did in the movies, wouldnât you say that depression and anger can be the dark side? And how many times have I not gone live, taught that class, or wrote that chapter because it all feels so heavy?
The question becomes, how do we get rid of our attachments? I mean our society teaches us that we are our possessions, that we need more, better. We are less than when not in relationships, donât have happy families, or stacks of money. Even on the spiritual side, that we canât be content in this and every moment.
What I have found is that, for me, attachment usually comes when I have placed parts of my self-worth or my identity into the pieces. Right now, without being in my home and on the road, I feel like who I have designed myself to be isnât being fulfilled. Much like the Five of Cups in Tarot, I am seeing the 3 empty cups and not the two full ones.
I have thought that people will start thinking me a fraud, because I am not on the road, not in my motorhome doing all these lives. That somehow, they wouldnât believe that I could STILL be waiting for the motor to be complete.Â
Ridiculous right?
I invite you to look at your life and ask yourself these questions:
 What outcome am I attached to in this moment?
Why is that important to me?
What would happen if it didnât look the way I wanted it to?
How can I live in my values without it?
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About the Author:
Jeff is a Productivity Jedi, author, speaker, and host of the Creative Nomad Show. He has worked with multiple international best-selling authors, artists, coaches, and Fortune 500 companies to create brands, grow sales, and create systems and processes that allow for more productivity, freedom, and ease.
He is currently living in a 1993 Tioga Montara with my young puppies, Prince Rupert & Prince Fredrick, so that he can live more intentionally, see beautiful places, and show others that you can live your true awesome life no matter what that looks like. Â Â
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